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I've been trying to document the things I can remember from my bizarre beta-blocker induced dreaming!
Most of it is too nightmarish and I don't care to remember, but some is fun & interesting and make it into my journal.
Enjoy my weird brain things.

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5/31/26
I want to go to an Alkaline Trio concert. For some reason, I have a powered wheelchair and I decide I can make it to the concert venue by riding the wheelchair on the road. I take a few dark "back alleyways" to get there. It is difficult to use the gps and push the buttons to drive the wheelchair, but I make it there just fine and park the wheelchair in a parking space. The concert is fun. I am trying to make my way back home in the wheelchair but I am approached by some creepy dudes and they start harassing me. Someone hears this and comes out of their home to tell them to leave me alone. I thank this person and tell them they just saved my life. I ride the wheelchair back home and park in the driveway.

5/29/26
I'm on vacation with my dad, to visit with one of his old friends. We are somewhere very cold. His friend takes us out in a large boat onto some very cold waters so that we can go orca watching. It's fairly dark outside but we find some beautiful orcas and my dad's friend lets his dogs get in the water to swim with the orcas. His dogs are all black and absolutely massive. It's hard to tell between the orcas and the dogs when they are swimming underwater. Once we are done, we head back to my dad's friend's house but his friend does not come back with us. I decide to make some coffee but the coffee maker is weird and complicated. His friend is not there to teach me how to use it. My coffee turns out disgusting so I ask my dad if he will run to the nearby market to get me more coffee.

5/22/26
I'm at a garage sale and I find a few things I want to buy. I find some ZA books and a cute nostalgic looking pencil & accessories case. I am ready to buy the items but a woman comes out into the garage yelling at everyone at the sale. She says the sign outside is old and that we missed the sale, the things we are looking at are just leftovers and she was going to throw them away. We have to argue with her to let us buy the items.

5/18/26
I am invited to a special screening of an upcoming Dungeon Crawler Carl show/movie. It's being held in the library of my old high school. When I arrive, no one will look at me or talk to me except for the librarian. She is very nice and gives me a DCC plushie. I try to enjoy the show/movie but I'm too confused as to why no one else will acknowledge me so I leave early. School is ending as I'm leaving, so I am walking through all of the students that are leaving class. I walk past a very pregnant cheerleader who is pointing out some flowers in the planter to her friend. I feel uncomfortable being at my old high school and I walk faster to the parking lot.

5/16/26
I live with my parents and I'm trying to setup my grow towers wherever I can find space in their house. I insist we put them near the big windows for extra light. They won't let me. I consult (J) about the towers and the best way to keep them healthy without the window space. He brags about how he set up towers for a particular rich/famous person in small cubbies, and programmed special lightning inside. He shows me a video of how he set them up. I tell him the info is unhelpful. I finally find a space for the towers but the plants don't grow very well.

5/8/26
I am in a small but crowded shopping center with my family. It's bright and sunny out. Lizard people (that look like argonians from Elder Scrolls) show up discreetly and begin to change the air around us as "punishment". They tell us it's because they evolved to breathe differently, and now we should too. They use big blue machines to pump something into the air around us. Most of the people in the crowd are unaware of what's happening. (B) and I grab our kids and try to escape to the 4runner.

4/21/26
I am on a camping trip that feels very strange. There are creepy people making creepy comments. I want to stay but I get lost in a crowd. I find my way back to the camping spot and find a needle in the bun I am eating.

4/14/26
(B) and I arrive to a very strange hotel. It has a very dark and creepy circus-like aesthetic. There are topless women in the lobby that look like performers. There is a big winding staircase. We go up the staircase to our room and (S) is checking out/leaving the same room we are checking in to and she says she's prepared it for us. (B) and I proceed to grow very large, odd shaped watermelons in the hotel room.

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(B) buys us a large house, sight unseen. We arrive to start the move in process and meet with the previous owner, an older woman who's husband died so she decided to sell the house. The house is enormous. It has dark red concrete flooring and lots of large windows in every room. The house is still furnished and decorated from the previous owners. I am looking through the rooms and I find a golden retriever in one of them. It leads me to another room with a suitcase on the floor. The suitcase has a cat and her kittens inside. I go back into the main room to find the previous owner to ask questions, but she is gone. I make my way to the backyard area and notice it's connected to the neighbor's backyard. They also have big windows and I can see they have a jungle themed house and a pet lion inside. I open the back door and the golden retriever starts barking at the lion. A man with long hair opens the door and lets the lion out, and starts yelling at us and threatening us.

1/31/25
A news anchor from Tucson wakes me up to ask if I know anyone he can talk to and interview. I ask him "About U-haul?" and then he just walks away.

1/30/25
My family and I accidentally stumble across a cult in the desert. They follow us and decide to bomb and kill my family while we are stopped at a nearby gas station store. I discover I can reverse time and I go back to stop the bomb.

7/24/24
The owner offers me a job at the same restaurant (R) works at. I ask (R) if it's okay that I work there with her. She is excited about it. I decide I can't work there because I can't drive at night.

7/19/24
I am on vacation in Mexico. I bring all of my bookshelves and books with me to the hotel. I am trying to pack them up to bring them back home. My dad is there and is very annoyed that I brought it all with me. I regret doing it.

7/18/24
I am on vacation in Mexico. The locals throw a rave for the stray dogs. I take pictures and videos of the dogs in the neons lights on my phone. I go back to my hotel room and I am stressing out. I have to figure out how to get my grow towers back home and I can't remember how I even got them to Mexico.

7/16/24
Cruise ship with canvas covered booths.

10/30/23
Big round white duck with missing feathers.

10/25/23
I buy a huge property with a big house, barn, and workshop. The cops arrive and decide they need to search the property. Suddenly, lots of random people start showing up as well. I am very upset and I threaten legal action. I am wandering around, yelling at all of the people scattered about. I find a strange, naked, middle-aged man passed out drunk right outside of the barn. At the workshop I ask a short haired girl if she likes my tools. She says "No, not really."

10/21/23
(M) and (M) buy a huge property with a big white house in Oklahoma to farm onion trees and apple trees. They have a big circular driveway, lots of grass, and the orchard is beautiful. They are the biggest onions and apples I've ever seen. I eat a whole onion right off the tree and it is delicious.

10/25/22
I am dead but everyone can still see me. I'm driving in the 4runner trying to find people. I can't figure out what's going on or where to go. Go WEST.

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I am driving in a fast convertible car with (M) and (D). We are speeding through a desert city and all of the buildings we pass are on fire. We are on a mission to get to (M)'s sister. She has been kidnapped by a cult. We arrive to a small, but very tall house in the middle of the desert. (M)'s sister answers the door with a flower crown on her head. We somehow convince her to leave with us.



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